Of Hectic Office Life, Much Lesser Gym, Late Nites With Friends & Snacks, And The Man Dat I Shudn't Fall 4

Not dat I am very diligent in updating dis blog of mine, but lately it has definitely died down. Yes, much to blame on the horrendous workload in office (I know, such a boring reason). The past few weeks have been days with long hours at work 4 me. Coming in to work at 8am and leaving the place after 9pm sort of scarily became a routine 4 me at least twice a week. At times I find myself feeling like a zombie after I pass 9PM at work. Dat is when I know I have to call it a day. Frens are starting to tease me "hey you work like a CEO, are they paying u like one meh?"

I am already guilty for not visiting the gym as frequent as I should, only like wat, twice a week, is already a good record for me for the past months. But lately it has gone worse. I come home feeling drained out and hungry. At almost 9PM at least, how do I even find the discipline and energy to push myself to drive to gym, I just don't know. Hence, gym became a stranger to me lately.

And to make things more guilty for me, with the already tired body and zombied mind, I will often throw myself onto the bed say like 12+ midnite, turn on my Friends series (FYI I am into Season 7 of my recycling of watching these evergreen series, dun judge me! i just love them OK LOL), start nibling my supper snacks. OMG, lack of rest, still want to sleep late, no exercise, and pigging out in the middle of the nite?? Yes, you can judge me on these...

And to top the cream to the cake of guilt and feeling of absurdity lately, I am recently starting to have feelings for dat person again. The very person I am totally not suppose to feel for, in any way. I started developing feelings for Mr. S, a person completely falling out of the range of my usual liking and taste, and for some weird reasons attracting me like mysterious moths to a flame. I knew it was spelling danger when it started, and when he sort of reciprocate, my world went upside down a little. I forced myself to take a step back at dat point. And it worked for a while, until now, months after. Lately, the feelings are coming on stronger than ever. And why you might be asking, I am forcing myself to avoid dis. Well, erm...just one reason, strong enuff more than ever to justify. He's married.....